the nail and the foot.

people comes and go from our life. so do I, come and go from people life. they come when they need me after get what they want, booms they will leave me. maybe it's true, I forget how to be alone. three years in a row, there's someone who always there for me. the one who I share my story with. the one who always teasing me. when the relationship end, it feels like I lost my compass. where I have to go? to the right? to the left? or I have to turning back? I'm standing in the center for a long time, frightened. I'm afraid if the gravity will bring me down. so here I am standing, hammer a nail to my foot. one by one people comes, try to take that nail. they try to hang out with me, grab my hand and track my hair. but it's useless, I'm so enjoy this situation. when you don't have to texting every morning and every night with the same words. when you don't have to get hurt if they dissapointed you. when you don't have thieving time to meet them. when you don't have to act like who you are not when you with them. when you don't have to keep their feeling so you free of guilty. when you're free from someone who truss you cause they're think you is their own and no one can tease you, can hang out with you, can says joke to you, except them. I often feel lonesome and have no one to share with. but I moved on and guess what? I'm very happy! I have many crush and stalk them. I approach them, tell stupid jokes, pretending love them, and leave them suddenly before we're both falling in love. for heaven's sake it's so fun hehehe. that's why when they ask me to serious I can't give it. cause deep inside my heart, I won't hurt many people again. I feel haven't mature enough to take one step forward. this nail haven't ready yet to leave the foot.